omg. im going to leave 2009. very very soon :(

Which was the best month for you? ummm.. february, june, july, december =p

Which month(s) was the worst? april, august, and november

What was the most significant thing that happened this year? lots! bali trip, jogja trip, padang trip, sweet 17, sudden dance, loren cup, etc etc..

What person had the most impact on your life this year? friends. mostly friends

What was the best concert that you attended? not attending any concert =(

What was your biggest challenge of 2009? trying to reach the min score to get into university..trying to be more grown up and more open to new ideas :)

Your biggest regret? no regret

What moments stand out to you the most? lots. i forgot. hahahaha

What band did you listen to the most? ermm.. i tend to change my music a lot. but ne-yo and michael buble and olivia ong are like my all year fave. and right now im soo into moony- i don't know why.

On a scale of 1-10, 2009 was: 8,8

Did you:

Meet anyone special? yepp. lots

Get close to someone you didn’t expect to? yes

Have a boyfriend or girlfriend? nah.

Have a relationship for more than 3 months? nop

Hook up with anyone, no strings attached? that depends on hw far the term "hook up" is

Experience the death of a loved one? i dont think so..

Get in a fight? no. well yes

Lose a friend? no. and i have no intention to do so

Get drunk? yes

Regret doing something? yes. but not really. hahaha

Go to a concert? noo. i think ive answered this one. dont ask something i hate answering twice!

Fall in love? no. not really. but u know, kinda

Fall out of love? yep

Get back together with an ex? No

Enjoy being single? yes. at times..

Accomplish a goal? yepp!

Learn something new? yeap. lots

Get arrested? No

Break up with someone? Not exactly

Get a tattoo? nop

Go to a party? Yes.

The New Year: 2010

What will you be doing on New Year’s Eve: so far, no plan. i know, sucks..

Will you kiss anyone at midnight? nah. i think.

Who do you WANT to kiss at midnight? no one

What is your New Year’s resolution? get accepted into the university i want. and be kinder and more flexible. no judging others.

Did you keep your resolution from last year? i don't know. i forgot

Do you think things will be different in 2010? absolutely!

What do you want most out of 2010? i dont want to leave 2010 thinking that i could've done better

Do you think 2010 will be better than 2009? yes

Anything you are particularly looking forward to? going to canada. going to university. leaving my too-familiar past.

christmas.family gathering. <3

heyya!
ive been away for a while..
since the baptism day, today is the second time in my whole life to ever receive the holy bread.. because today i went to church for Christmas mass..

well well well..
there are lotsa things happened in the past days.


On the 23rd me and my friends held this little christmas party (if you could even say it a party). we roasted chicken, beef, chicken wings, squids, and fried some fries and hashbrown. it was marvelous..

here are the pics

alain.jay.shan.febryan.

me.alain.shan.febryan

then we went to "es krim om", it's just an ordinary house located in lipo karawaci. the only difference is that in this place we can get tasty home-made ice cream in various flavors in a fairly cheap price. the owner and the maker is a man in his 40s, slightly bald, very thin and we call him "Om". in english it's like "Uncle"..

i bought Famous Amos and Marie Regal. my favorite is Koko Krunch, but at that time he ran out of that flavor, so i chose Famous Amos. if you wonder how tasty it is, just imagine cookies n cream ice cream but tastier and cheaper. hahaha

afterwards, some of my friends have to go some place else. so I, Alain, Felia, and Jay brainstormed of other place to go. not wanting to waste the day, i and alain proposed the idea of going to Kemang to Felia and Jay. and they agreed.

we asked Windi to join as our guide since neither one of us know the way to go there. so then we picked windi up and it turned out that she didn't know the way either. amateurs in one car, dreading to go to Kemang. so then windi asked her mom and her mom gave us instructions to go there. (psst, my mom knows nothing about this. because if i told her, she wouldnt let me go)


due to the sudden plan, we went there with ugly clothes and we only brought a small amount of money which forced us to eat in a relatively "pocket-friendly" restaurant. so we chose Burger King among all those infamous, tasty and pricey restaurants in Kemang. nevertheless, we had so much fun in there. most part, we laughed hysterically. and at the end of the day, we got lost on our way back to our houses.. it was a wonderful day.

me n windi.

fries and chilli sauce

24th of December...

usually, every year, on the night of December 24th, i always go to church, celebrating christmas eve with thousands other people in st. laurensius church. but this year, i made an exception because my sister went with her friends to a mall and she went home late. that means we wouldn't get any seat and even if we do, we wouldn't get the comfy one. we would get the ones on the front with no air con and could only watched the priests and the whole sacred ceremony through a plasma tv, installed in front of every row.

so i spent the day watching Julie n Julia. and i could say that it's a fairly good movie. then at night, my family and i had dinner in a seafood restaurant. and when the clock striked 00.00, my phone started beeping and ringing with christmas wishes..

i HEART christmas wishes!



25th of December

so yeah.. today... i started the day at around 9 in the morning. my mom and dad had waken up already and they were kinda busy preparing our house, the food, the audio system, and other needs for today's family gathering.

then when i was enjoying my breakfast, alain called asking me to go outside. so i went outside and he was there, handing me a shopping bag and he said it's a christmas present. then he went away. when i opened it, it was Michael Buble's CD!! and i love it!

the family gathering suppose to start at 11 a.m. if you think it's christmas gathering, then you're positively wrong. we held this family gathering under the name of "just gathering"...this gathering consist of eating together, playing, karaokeing, catching up with each other's stories, showing ur boyfriend or girlfriend to the family if you have one, and they hold "arisan".. the kind of gathering where you collect money and made lotteries to determine who is the winner. the winner got all the money collected from each family.

then at around 5 pm, all the families had gone home. so we took a shower and went to church. surprisingly, the church is still empty although it's only an hour away before the ceremony. usually, the church is already full although it's still an hour before the mass starts. but today, since it's my first time going to church on the 25th of December, i was quite shocked. we even asked the guards if there was a mass..

after the mass ended, my family and I had dinner in sushi naga, a modern japanese restaurant that serves fusion style sushi. and now here i am, stomach full, all set, relaxed. no solid plan for tomorrow.. i guess i'll just go with the flow tomorrow and for the next days until the 4th of january because on the 4th of January I'm going to Bali!! yippiee!

anyway...




MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! Happy holiday! <3

"I wish we could put up some of the Christmas spirit in jars and open a jar of it every month.”

— Harlan Miller

Aurelia Helena <3

adding two names to my original name is one of the strangest thing i've ever experienced..

today..at 10 a.m. a baptism ceremony was held in St. Laurensius Church and i was there. not as attendees or choir.. but as one of those people, sitting on the front seats, wearing white blouse and black skirt.. i was going to be baptized!

this idea excited me and at the same time, scared me..

i've wanting to be a legal part of Jesus's followers since a long time ago. and i've joined choir for church since i was in grade 5. i went to church with my mom and once when i was in grade 6, i was offered to be altar server, but to my dissappointment, i couldn't.. because i hadn't been baptized and communioned.. and since then, i felt like i was an outsider.. each time i went to church with my mom, people would looked at me when it's time to receive the holy bread. why? because i stayed on my seat. this idea seemed to be okay with me... i hadn't been baptized..so what?

but it bothered me after more than 7 years of staying still on my seat while my mom and sisters and friends who claimed themselves catholics, received the holy bread. and it nagged me when i want to join mudika.. somehow, i felt weird, joining that kind of organization while i couldn't even be sure of my identity, of where i belong.

each time someone asked me what my religion was, i would answer catholic. but deep down i knew i wasn't a catholic.. i just blurted it out, but when i was asked what my baptized name was, i said i hadn't been baptized. people would then asked, why? and i would answer, i don't know.. my mom was really busy so she didn't have time to baptize me when i was a baby...

but again. it's not true.. if i really wanted to be a catholic, i would have joined the lesson since a long time ago... then what? why? why do i chose this time of year to make it all legal and official that i'm a catholic?

i guess it's because i want to be sure of my identity. i want to feel safe, i want to know where i truly belong. i have faith in Jesus, i have faith in catholicism, why should i wait again? what am i waiting for? i'm 17 years old, i'm old enough to choose which direction i want in my life...

many people say that "it's not always right that people with religion do good things" then maybe i just realized that there are thousands of people without religion they specifically chose who have done better things than people with religion.. and i want to be a good people with religion. because all the good things i did, i got it from my mom, sisters and friends, who mostly are catholics.. i want to be a step nearer to God.. i don't want to pray and pray and pray helplessly but with a tiny bit of doubt inside...doubting that God will hears my prayers.. because i wasn't officially catholic. i knew that God listened to everyone's prayer,,, but maybe it's just me.. i want to feel secure.. knowing that God is always there, listening to my prayers..


then that's i guess.. how i got my name...Aurelia Helena Agita Wijaya


Aurelia is a saint who was born a princess but she chose to be a hermitess..
(at first i thought this name sounds "princessy" and "girly".. but as soon as i knew her life, i adore her more..she dared to be different at that time of age, it must had been a courageous and extreme thing to do)
and Helena, she was the first Christian Emperor of Rome.. she found the hiding place of the three crosses used in the crucifixation of Jesus and the two thieves..

but in latin, Aurelia means Golden
whereas Helena means Light..

i'd like those name to be added to my name, please ;p

I sense Christmas is coming!!

Don't waste your time worrying about boys- boys will come and go. Don’t waste your time caring about the people who don’t like you- chances are you don’t like them either. Don’t waste your time worrying if people are talking about you- you affected their lives, they didn’t affect yours.
— Unknown

love her bold style. chruch st. NYC

I used to say, “I sure hope things will change.” Then I learned that the only way things are going to change for me is when I change.

—

Jim Rohn

Being single used to mean that nobody wanted you. Now it means you’re pretty sexy and you’re taking your time deciding how you want your life to be and who you want to spend it with.
— Sex and the City

“Time is very slow for those who wait
Very fast for those who are scared
very long for those who lament
Very short for those who celebrate
But for those who love time is eternal”

— William Shakespeare

never miss a chance to dance <3

freedom day -1

Imagine if you've just finished a test, math test..or a hectic week with all the project deadlines and assignments you have to submit!! PLUS, your test got really bad score.. and then you walk home with crumpled face and grumpy mood. and suddenly, it's raining! you ran home and your clothes get wet. it's like that day is your bad luck day!

after you get in your house, you take a bath with warm water and then you dry your hair. after that..you think about what you have to prepare for tomorrow...hmm...but strangely you have nothing left to do!! really?! yes, the worst part is over!

so you sit on your sofa on your balcony, facing a field with green grass....It's raining........you're totally in peace....you turn on your audio system and a jazzy tunes swinging around the room.....then you remember you have a good book you haven't yet a time to read, so you take your book, read it carefully page by page..it's really relaxing...it's fulfilling...it's like heaven on earth.... what else could you possibly ask for, life is good..

but to complete the transformation of your "bad luck day" into your "good relaxing day".....you need a little warm cup of coffee! of course you need it. it's your friend during the busy day, it keeps you up when you have to finish ur assignments, it's your only friend in your room after past midnight.. and right now, when everything seems just right, a cup of coffee will make your day perfect!

isn't it?!

ok.. i'm exaggerating here..

but really.. i got tired of people saying i'm not allowed to drink coffee..i've tried to convinced them that coffee is good for your health! and i'm not an addict who drink more than 6 cups a day! i'm a daily-intaker... coffee is only right when you drink it on the right time, place, and mood.. and just now i had one. tomorrow is the last day of block test. and unfortunately, the last part of this hell week is economic and accounting test! the hardest of all! but still, there's no reason for not celebrating it, so i had one cup of coffee :)

and i found out some interesting facts about coffee....

for your information..for my excuse :p

Ten Health Benefits from Coffee :)

1. Avoid Alzheimer’s A 2009 study found that people who drank three to five cups of coffee a day at midlife were 65 percent less likely to develop Alzheimer’s in their later years, compared to those who drank little or no coffee.

2. Curb Cancer Risk The antioxidant compounds in coffee may help prevent several types of cancer. In a Japanese study, women who drank three or more cups of coffee a day had half the risk of developing colon cancer, compared to those who didn’t drink coffee.

3. Defend Against Diabetes Drinking coffee lowered the risk of developing type 2 diabetes by up to 60 percent in a 2006 study that included people at high risk for the disease.

4. Reduce Workout Pain A study of young women found that using caffeine before exercise can cut post-workout pain by nearly 50 percent. The caffeine in coffee may help by blocking the activity of a chemical called adenosine that activates pain receptors in cells.

5. Guard Against Gout Two studies from 2007 suggest that drinking coffee is protective against gout, a painful, arthritic condition of the joints (most commonly, the big toes). In one study, middle-aged and older men who drank four to five cups of coffee a day were 40 percent less likely to develop gout than those who abstained from the beverage.

6. Deter Death from Heart Disease A number of recent studies indicate that coffee drinkers have lower odds of dying from heart disease. For instance, a 2008 study concluded that women who drank two to three cups of coffee per day had a 25 percent lower risk of death from heart disease than those drinking less than a cup a month.

7. Preserve Your Memory Coffee may help to keep memory sharp, according to a pair of studies from 2007. In one study, older women who drank more than three cups of coffee a day experienced fewer declines over time on memory tests than those who drank one cup or less a day. Tea drinkers enjoyed similar benefits, so caffeine may be the beneficial component.

8. Protect Against Parkinson’s Several studies have linked coffee drinking with a lower risk of Parkinson’s disease. For instance, a 2007 study revealed that people who drank one to four cups of coffee a day cut their chances of developing the neurodegenerative disorder by nearly 50 percent. Scientists believe the caffeine in coffee may help defend against Parkinson’s by boosting levels of the brain chemical dopamine.

9. Sidestep Stones Coffee appears to reduce the risk of both gallstones and kidney stones. In a 2002 study, women who drank at least four cups of coffee a day were 25 percent less likely to need surgery for gallstones than nondrinkers were, and an earlier study showed that coffee drinking lowered gallstone risk in men.

10. Say No to Stroke In a 2009 study, women who drank four or more cups of coffee a day had a 20 percent lower risk of stroke, compared to those who had less than one cup a month.

and really.. one cup won't do any harm!

i don't know what to say...
pretty much speechless but there's this wide smile plastered on my face.. maybe it's a happy smile, a confused one, or maybe and most likely is a silly laugh from my long lost mind.. i don't know why i laugh but it feels weird getting this news. it's like "what was i thinking?!" and at the same time it's like "finally!" or maybe it's more like "are you kidding me?"..

i know you're not a fool but somehow i got this feeling that it's really funny what we had all this time. or maybe it's just me, suddenly having all the flashbacks of the things we've been through, the silliest silliest things, the are-you-out-of-ur-mind-? things, the extraordinary things i don't usually do but i did it anyway.. what for? i don't know....

but one thing i know, I'm not your lover, nor your friend.. or even best friend. I'm just a nobody from the start til this very second i type this sentence. i never made you any different, i'm just someone popped in your good life in good timing and we were stupid. i was stupid, more likely. I'm just a nobody, trying to catch up with my life, with this new world opening, standing ahead of me. trying to adjust with this new piece of news which i'm not shock at all.at all.

i like you.i liked you.
it's that simple.
you made me laugh. you made me smile.
:)

but surely, if it's as simple as i made it sound...then maybe i won't bother typing this...
i'm just celebrating the end of my uncertain self..

the ten commandments of friendship :)

delicate things....

what a dress

My Dearest Allie,

I couldn’t sleep last night because I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I hope to give to you forever. I love you.

I’ll be seeing you. Noah

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